Tuesday, May 14, 2013

No Judgments

It is easy to be self-righteous. Should I tell you how? Go look in the mirror. In a few seconds, your brain will start churning and chugging, and you will see a person who is simply DA BOMB. I mean, we think like this all the time. We see other people, and out comes the rulers and scales- I am prettier, taller, smarter, better-looking... and on, and on, and on.
And then we hear about people with disorders, addictions, and problems galore. It is so easy to pass judgment, to raise ourselves up. I am guilty of it. And you probably are too.
As a psych major, I am still adjusting to hearing about people with different disorders. I think How are they like this? JUST SNAP OUT OF IT! And then... I realize we all have a little OCD inside. A little BPD. Maybe a splash of anorexia, bulimia, insomnia, depression... We are not without our flaws. I am not without my flaws. So who am I to judge others?
As of late, I have been stuck in a certain cycle. I know where it started and why it is continuing, but I am having a hard time breaking out of it. I have heard of people who went through this too and I always thought never me. And now it is happening. There are options for me to break this cycle, but as we all know, sometimes it is hard to do that. This "cycle" is dizzying and nauseating, but at the same time, there is a certain thrill to it. A rush. Exhilaration. It is the chase. The race. Fast-paced.
But it is also having a negative effect on me. So it has to stop. I don't know when it will, but I know it must end.
And in case you are worried, there is no drinking, drugs, or other questionable behavior in this picture. This isn't an issue that is exclusive to me-- like I said, many people suffer from it.
Are you trapped in a cycle? Is there something gripping your life, holding it tightly, and not allowing you free?
You are not alone. And neither am I.

1 comment:

  1. If one is not self-aware, than they are doomed to a life stuck in a rut. The fact that you are aware is a madreiga in itself, and you are halfway there.

    I get so mad at myself when I succumb to self-righteousness, I want to smack myself upside the head. It is also a tough cycle to get out of.

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