Sunday, April 28, 2013

Limbo

We met
In limbo
Caught between
Where we came from
And where we are
Supposed to be going
But there is no knowing
When we're gonna get there
Together
Or apart
It's not fair
To play games
Of the heart
No one wins
And everyone loses
Unless
We smash all the pieces
And break the rules
But
No one does
Just cuz
It's not done
And who wants to be
The one
Who does that?

Saturday, April 27, 2013

Burning

Light
There is a light here
Something
Brighter
Than the sun
A burst
I can finally quench
My thirst
My pain
My sweat
It was worth
The hike
The night
I can finally feel
The air
It is clear
I am near
I can breathe again
The summit
Is not the end
But my beginning
I can become
Elevated
I suffocated
But now
The smoke has cleared
And all I see
Is the fire
It is brighter than the sun
It is now burning in me.

Friday, April 26, 2013

Hours

I count my days
In hours passing
Passed
Or yet to pass...
Hours to sleep,
How few they have become
Hours in class
How endless they seem
Hours til my meetings
That sneak up so quickly
Hours, hours, hours
I rack them up
Then watch them fall
Into lines, neat and clean
And so it would seem
That the hours come
The hours go
Until there is nothing more
For me to know
Hours...
Hours...
H...o...u...r...s..

Monday, April 22, 2013

My Baby

Don't take my sunshine away
Why would you
Take my baby
And bury her
Beneath your demands
Your expectations
Well,
I have them too
I have them
Because of you
You showed me kindness
You showed me care
So kill my baby?
You wouldn't dare
You say
She isn't worth the investment
The time or money
Honey
This baby is mine
I would give my last dime
To give her the best chance
Her best shot
At getting another dance
One more spin
One more win
Give up your ego
Take one for the team
How can someone so kind
Become so cruel and mean?
If you pull out
There is no force in the world
That could silence my shout
For a change
To take away what you've done
If you put us down
We will rise again
This will not stand
My baby deserves better
And if you don't let her
Then I guess you win
And my baby has no reason to live
So the blood will be on you
When my baby is gone

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Your Smile

Lately it seems
That something's amiss
No band-aid can fix
And it can't be cured by a kiss

Yet somehow
You are smiling so wide
And really I have to ask
This question: why?

Do you smile
Cuz you feel joy?
Or are you tricking me
Trying to be coy?

Has someone granted you
Your deepest wish
Or are you trying to hide
Your heartbreaking anguish?

Is it real
Or have you fooled us all
If I asked for an answer
Would answer my call?

Just tell me please
Are you really happy like you say
Or are you just trying to cover up
Until the pain goes away?

Friday, April 19, 2013

Bliss

A sweet reminder

Amidst the chaos

A gentle touch to say

That all is not loss

I inhale

Let it consume me

It fills me up

And through darkness, I can see

Every moment of stress

Every frustration just fades away

As every part of me

Melts into this day

I've lost myself

As I try to find who I am

I lose my balance

When I should be learning to stand

Yet despite it all

I know I can come back to this

And for once

I can reside in bliss.

Monday, April 15, 2013

Insanity and Tragedy

As I was typing the title, my blog post immediately changed. Despite its validity, suddenly my pain feels trivial... small... How can I feel so down on my life when true tragedy struck? As a Jew, I am not unaccustomed to terror. It rips through me when I hear about attacks in Israel. It's MY family. It's MY brother/sister/father/mother. It hits my heart. But today, terror hit my home. And it hit even closer, because it was close to something I identify with. There are few and far things in today's society that really speak for the strength of an individual and for a group, for the determination of accomplishment in a purer sense than what people believe is a real goal. A marathon is one of those things that draw people together towards a common goal, whether to reach the finish line or to raise money for a cause. I ran the Miami marathon for Team Lifeline a few years ago, and to say it was the most incredible experience of my life would be an understatement. There is something about a marathon, as physical as it may be, that simply elates me.
And for hundreds today, that elation became destruction. In a moment where personal and collective achievements would have been met, they were introduced to an even fiercer force- evil.
There is no other word for it. It simply was an act of evil. An action so devoid of anything good.  It created a scene of insanity. It brought about the most horrid tragedy.
And so, while I may be feeling upset about certain things, my pain is being put on hold and my heart is going north... I stand with those who were in the marathon. I stand with the runners, the warriors, the fighters....

To those affected by the explosions, I say, “Run when you can, walk if you have to, crawl if you must; just never give up.”

Home

I wrote this last year while on a bus to Tel Aviv... as the gorgeous scenery and land passed me, I was just simply overwhelmed... I can't wait to go back home...

Palm trees
Waving at me
In the early
Spring breeze
My heart
Be still
This pounding
Bounding
Burning desire
Inner fire
To go higher
My dream
May seem
Unreal
But I'm home
In the land
Of Israel
And so my heart
Cannot unstart
This expression of affection
And beats louder
Prouder
For home
Milk and honey sweet
Home

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Get Going

Keep it real
Get real
Get going
Grow up
Stop playing
Stop saying.
For G-d's sake
Start praying
Why are you here
Why are you going there
Come back
Go away
Why'd you say
It would stay the same
I call your name
And you don't reply
I know it was a lie
You're gone
I went along
For some reason
Which reason can't know
I still can't explain
Why I ever let you go.

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