The Challenge of Emuna

I.

You sent me

Into the cold

The heat

The elements

Of wind

Rain and storm

To sit in peace

And solitude

In happiness

And peace

With the knowledge

That you will shelter me

And keep me safe

From harm

I am your faithful servant

Your beloved child

I trust in your choices

Your decisions

And I will rejoice

In that acceptance.

II.

How could you

Take away

My safety

And security

How can you

Expect me

To feel safe

When the roof above my head

Is about to blow away

And the walls around me

Are waving in the slightest breeze

How could my father

Remove me from my home

Take away my comfort

And yet

You want me to trust

To believe

To rejoice?

This tragic hut

Will float away

In my tears of abandonment

Because you left me alone

III.

I don't understand

Why you threw me into the cold

Took away the one I loved

Removed my one source of joy

I feel challenged in my belief

And question the decisions you have made for me

I try

With pathetic attempts

To make sense of the senseless

To rearrange the pieces of my heart

And rewire the dysfunction of my brain

To find a place in my soul

Where you belong

And can help me on my journey

To happiness

This is the first of my journey

I have two more attempts

On my feeble feet

To come closer

And with each step

I hope to reach full acceptance

Of every challenge

With happiness and love.

If Fluff Holds Us Together...

...What will keep us sticking if we throw it away?

Fluff... I got tons of it... I use for my research papers, for facades I put on for my friends, for respect I try to show my teachers... it's not real, it's just fluff! I used it when it came to my music and my books, things I read and things I watched--pure fluff.. overly sticky, never good in vast amounts, pretending to be all pure and clean, but really, if you stick your hand it, it's impossible to get out of... fluff...
Seems innocent, right? When it comes to fluff as a food, it's awesome! It's great for camping-- rice krispie treats, s'mores--yum delish, right? But in our lives, our day to day activities, it's dangerous.
You may think I am kidding... most probably you're reading this and thinking is this girl normal? Fluff? What in the world?! And you have every reason to think that... but think about this...
How often do we turn to falseness and transient things to fill our days... does it really hold us together? Or does it just get us into deeper, sticker messes?
So if we get rid of all our fluff, what will keep us together, hold us tight when we feel like falling...? What, if not fluff? There has got to be something, something stronger... and that my friends, is faith. Faith that giving up the fluff will make us fantastic people... (nice use of alliterations, don't you think?) Fluff... it's good... a little gashmius goes along way... but a lot of gashmius will only drag us into sticky, unsafe territory... so be careful how much fluff you spread on your life.