It's Been A While...

Hello again…

You? Really?

It's truly been a while. I've missed you!

I'm sure you have.

Well don't sound so excited… it'll give me an ego!

What do you want?

Let's talk. How have you been?

I dunno. Fine. Great. Whatever.

Wow… Call the presses! That's headline news!

Shut up.

Not when I am on a roll…

I've been… fine. Stuck? Walking through mud? Mud filled with needles. It's hard and it hurts. And you haven't been much of a help.

Well I know. You have been too busy to talk with me. I get that life is busy… but you used to be so good about checking in with me… Filling me in on the details.

The details are hazy. My life feels like I blur. If I have a second to breathe, it's only because I fell asleep.

Must be rough.

Yea.

Well look… sometime big is happening next week. You ready for it?

No. I had a whole plan. A seven week plan… I messed up. I got busy… confused. I met someone. I lost someone. I said things. I didn't say things. I read. I saw. I came… went… I didn't conquer.

Ouch… sounds like a couple of messed up weeks. What happened? I mean.. the ideal you… the good you.. She was great! She was rockin!

And now she just feels like a rock. A big, stinkin boulder that isn't getting anywhere or doing anything.

So what are you going to do? Keep wallowing? Keep sinking? That's not you. You are good-er than that!

Nice Kid President reference. If only I could listen to that on repeat… maybe I'd be good-er. But instead…

You are bad-er. Plain and simple.

Uch. I know.

So..

So.

No solutions? Response? Nothing?

I just want to disappear. Crawl into a dark cave.

Cuz that will certainly give your life some light!

Hmph.

Look. You are an incredible person. You know it. I know it. So why let yourself get any lower?  Lift up your head, see the top of the mountain, and start climbing! So you'll fall. So you'll get a little scraped up… once you reach the top, you'll be glad you did. The view is amazing.

I guess you're right..

It's true. So what are you gonna do?

Guess I better start climbing..

Yep! And when you get up there, tell Him I say hi. He'll be so happy to see you.

Thanks. I'll see you… or not.