Dear _________,
This is the real letter I should have sent you. I wrote that first one as the small sign that I was slightly affected by my time spent with you. Slightly. Because despite all the things you taught me, you barely scratched the surface. I came to you when I needed help, when I needed someone, and you tried to pass me off... Just like I said all the others had done... and you did the same.
I gave you that letter. I didn't want to hear your reaction. But you said, "Thank you... and I'm so sad we didn't have more time together this year like we should have." Really? There were so many chances. I stopped reaching out because you stopped showing you cared. So please, please don't say that you wish we could have had more time together and when you have the chance, not even take it.
I'm not a groupie. I won't crowd around you with the others like an obsessive fan. It's not who I am. But if you realized we had a "connection" why didn't you act on it? I tried. I tried so many times but clearly I wasn't worth your time.
Thank you for whatever it was I wrote about in that first letter. But this is the one that says how I really feel. It's a shame you won't see it and know the truth.
RD
Saturday, May 21, 2011
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