Thursday, May 29, 2014

Chain Mail Love

I am afraid
But my face
Is armored
And my heart is
A shield
You can strike me
Like me
Love me
But you won't get past
All these defenses
I have
Because
The last person
I gave my heart to
For safekeeping
He left me longing
Alone
And wondering
What I did wrong...

1 comment:

  1. I always wonder how "they" can demand that older singles be more open and be more mingle-y and be more "out there" . . . but we've all been rejected, and we don't want to be hurt again. It's not a pleasant feeling, people who got married at 21.

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