I'm sure if you knew
The thoughts running through my aching mind,
Another friend, I promise,
I'm sure you'd be quick to find.
Beneath this charming smile
Underneath the one liners and jokes
Is a heart that is breaking
As it is beaten, and chokes.
You think I'm suave
And everything is fine?
Wait until, one day
You'll hear these dark thoughts of mine
The way I let myself succumb to pain
As it rips across my skin and heart
This happy girl you see
Is only moments from falling apart
And I have questioned, searching for truth
I hoped you would follow the clues
That would lead you to understand and know
About my terrible inner abuse
Yet you think, I'm still
Just jokes and causing trouble
I've built up this persona
That will soon fall to rubble
Do you doubt these words?
Perhaps so, as most do
But I am writing them
Because now... I can only rely on you.
A work of fiction... or is it?
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If it is..well written..if it isnt..then i hope u find someone that u feel comfortable enough to reveal yourself to and be your honest self with. it is essential to have a friend you can always be honest with.
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