Sometimes I dream
Of floating through the sky
Like a free balloon
That was released so high
I dream of soaring through the clouds
Reaching the heights that were once not allowed
I dream of swimming through the vast blueness above
I dream of being in a place that I love
I wish to watch the world
From the top looking down
I wish I could see the reasons
For all that occurs on the ground
I want a panoramic view
I really just want a clue!
I want to know why things happen in this world
I want all the secrets to be revealed and unfurled
“Does this really affect others?”
“Will I always remain stuck and the same?”
“Is there an explanation for why,
I play such a twisted, painful game?”
“Will we ever be released from this exile?”
“How much longer is ‘a while’?”
“How much longer can we witness the pain of others,
Our dearest fathers, mothers, sisters and brother?”
Yes, I dream of the impossible,
And my wish is just an impractical desire,
But if this tiny little wish can give me a glimpse of hope,
I think I’ll be able to hold lift my heart and soul higher.
I feel so stuck, down here on earth,
Because all this pain? What’s its worth?
Yet, I still believe I’ll soar towards the sky
And no longer will I be left to sigh.
In my heart and mind, I am flying to You,
Can You hold my hand as I start the countdown,
With you by my side, I am confident
That I won’t have to wait around.
I supposed I’ll have to be content
To just wishing for this day
But soon, I will be that fluttering balloon,
And one day, we’ll all fly away.
That's a beautiful poem! It's so hard when we want to understand and we have so many questions - but there is comfort in knowing that all the answers are there and if you search hard enough, you will find your answers. The answers to questions in yiddishkeit - those you can find, but the answers as to why things happen, that is what is hard to wait for...
ReplyDeleteI don't know if you've heard this before but there was someone who lived a very long life. When people asked him how he was zoche to live so long, he said, "All my life I never asked Hashem "why?" because I knew that if I ask why, He may take me up there to answer me. Although I lived a difficult life, I never questioned the ways of Hashem...this way, He never had to take me up there to give me answers..."
What a powerful message!