Summer Heat

I lost my way this summer

I thought I had a plan

It was all mapped out

The way things went about

Like a train wreck

Fueled by rocket fuel

Lit on fire by a volcano

Crashed into by a plane

It was pretty ugly

Pretty awful

It felt like

Every wall was moving in

Every window shut tight

Doors locked

Lights off

Air

Sucked

Out

It was pretty awful

And when I felt like I couldn't breathe

When the room was spinning

And I was sliding into despair

I woke up today

And things

Aren't quite as bad as they were then

The summer

Is just a memory

And tomorrow

Is a mystery

That I am excited to uncover

So...

It was pretty awful

But it wasn't the end

It isn't over

I am not finished

So

Nice try haters

You can try to tie me down

But I'll get out

Get around

Make some noise

Make a sound

And break through my own silence

I keep writing these words hoping one day I'll find the right ones to either bring you back or set me free

...
@Leo_Words

I have been trying to write
To find some way
To express
My anger
Anxiety
Apathy
Ache
Ache
I ache
Trying to write
Something
Some word
To capture
A spectrum of emotions
So wild
And wicked
So instead
I will bottle them up
Shake them
Til they burst
And maybe the words I need
Wi come forth.

Go back

If i could go back

And fix the mistakes I made

the words i said

i never

meant to hurt you

i wanted to be amazing

i wanted to create art

and design

i didn't give you a chance to 

learn the ropes

and develop the feel

instead

i went in for the kill

and now

im at a loss for words

have nothing 

left to say

because no words

no nothing

can fix this

please

i am sorry

forgive me

for

being a psycho

there are no excuses

but it is a nightmare in my head

i wish i had woken up sooner

Journeys (From the Archives)

There are questions

And answers

My view of the skyline

Shows how we have triumphed

And my view from the sky

Shows our scars

The streets tangle into memories

That transverse time

And remind me

Of why the pain felt so good

And the joy felt so strong

It was a searing reminder

Of why life is so wonderful

Even when things go so wrong

The journey led me to strangers

Who eventually became family

When there was no one else

There was always you

And so when I draw my map

All roads will lead me home

Even if I miss the turn

I'll know that my compass points you

And will return me to where I left

And where I have dreamed of coming back to