Restart

It still scares me sometimes

How fine I feel

How everything is ok

And I am in a good place

And then

And then

I see your face

I hear your name

My heart stops short

*Press restart*

Start system in safe mode

I thought I felt safe

I thought I felt ok

But then it all comes back

Like a power surge

The years of wanting

And waiting

The crushing disappointment

I never thought I could cry

For something I never had

And never will

Friday Afternoon

On a warm Friday afternoon

Long before the sun has set into a cool night

A group of people come together

And for a time, the world feels so right

There is a guitar or two

And men who feel their souls

They sing, they dance

As if they have clouds inside their soles

There is no weight in their heart

They can just embrace the day of rest

If every prayer could sound like this

Then the world would be so blessed

With every song, a new circle is formed

Their voices grow louder and stronger

For some it feels like eternity

But I wish this could go on longer

For just an hour or so

I feel like G-d is dancing here too

He joins hands with each of us

And shares His joy in all that is try

In a side room somewhere

A small minyan comes together

And although it's just for a Friday evening

I wish it could go on forever.

Disabilities Do Not Have to Disable

You look at me

The label that you see

The words on a paper

That describe 

Everything I am not

I can not

I will not

You have checked a list

For my dysfunctions

And with that

I am put into a class

Of people who are

Unable.

I have a disability

But I am not disabled

Because what that paper does not say

Is that I

Love to sing

And run

And dance

I love to be held

And most of all

I love to be loved

To be treated like any other

Maybe I do not reach the typical milestones

But in my world

The miles are not as painful
Because I enjoy every step

Can the same be said for you?