Tears of Laughter

I hold back tears
As exposed fears
Become dreams and wishes
Hopes and prayers
Sent up in flight
Soaring through uninhibited souls
Like free fireflies in the night...

Forgetting about the chemo
The hair loss
The surgeries and permanent scars
There is a way to overcome
Every challenge you face
You will succeed and stand...

"What's your syndrome called?"
However you spell it
They all stand for strength
And fearless determination
Something to laugh about
And fight
Power and courage
You hold it all

Laughter and smiles
Shining through the clouds
And rainier days
Breaking through the pain
And troubling haze
There is a light

I keep holding back tears
I've learned to laugh in the face
Of illness and sadness
Because that which may bring you down
Is that which can help you
To stand tall
Build towers
And break down walls

Waiting

It's coming...
It's almost here...
You've been waiting...
Patiently,
So patient,
You have been...
Even though...
You don't know...
When it's coming...
Just keep...
Waiting...
And it will be...
So glorious...
So incredible..
It's almost here...
Whatever you've been waiting for...

Sing

Fragility
An inevitability
The uncertainty
In life
Flashing before our eyes
Still, do we realize
The preciousness of a moment
The value of a second
The incredible weigh
Of each minute we are given?

Watching illness...
Sickness... Death...
I can only hope to
Grab onto another moment of life
A smile, a laugh, a song...
Pain is real...
So is happiness.

I don't understand why
A little boy had to die
His soul was severed
And to the heavens he will fly.

I don't understand why
A whole nation has to cry
Over the loss of a child,
Who was at the height of life.

I don't understand why G-d
You let a man commit murder
And how all of our pain
Went one step further.

I don't understand
Cuz if I did, I'd be G-d
And then I'd have to remain
And not be able to explain
To a people why
A child was maimed.

I don't understand
And I'm glad that I can't
Cuz being G-d
Is a weight I cannot carry.

I cannot fathom how a thing like this could happen. How one Yid could murder another so brutally... how a child could be killed so young... how a people must yet again suffer a terrible blow...
Hashem... this is Your plan, and that is the only thing I can accept... Why you let him be killed... I don't know...
Leiby, your beautiful neshama should have an aliyah and your murder should be avenged...


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Once

I once believed
And was rudely deceived.

I once had hope
Now I can barely cope.

I once knew
Until I lost you.

I held onto a dream
That split at its seams.

I once thought I knew it all
And now I get to watch it all fall.

Staying Awake

I'll sleep when I die
I'm not ready to say goodbye
Let the moon accompany me
And the stars sit by my side
My eyes are staying open wide
I want to see the world
Experience each moment in time
To take all the seconds
And make each one mine.

Words fly off the page
With wisdom for the age
I want to soak in each word
Let my voice be heard
Singing songs of strength and power
Until my final hour
And only until that time comes
Will I admit I'm done
And so
I'll sleep when I die
Because I'm not ready to say goodbye.

Reject

I hit my head
To shake off the dust
The dirt and grime
Of too many years
Trapped inside old walls.

I kicked away the prison cell
To let the light in
Glimmering and sparkles filled
Every corner of my sight
And suddenly
I could see.

I banished all traces
Of rejection and judgement
Leaving only acceptance
And love
The things I used to hide under.
My prison wall

For how long could I be
Locked up
Within my own choices
And decisions to push away the rest
When all I needed to do
Was learn to take them in.

Film

The final showing
Of the biggest show
You are the star
Oh, you didn't know?
All your deeds
Meticulously recorded
Every detail
Filmed and sorted.
Seen before
An audience up high
Enemies and friends
Watching wide-eyed.
Smile wide
You're the star
I wonder if
You were up to par.

'Nuff Said

Story of my life....